Journal Entry: Summer 2016
We just returned from Ecuador and it was such a beautiful trip. I loved every moment but the one that stand out are being by Larry’s side at the hospital. He had altitude sickness and we rushed him to be taken care of. The hospital had a strict policy of ‘family only’. The minute I knew I needed to write ‘wife’ to stay with him at the hospital, I sure one day I would be his family.
That night in the hospital was so scary. I was hurting inside but trying to be strong for him. My first dinner in Ecuador was from the vending machine, one piece of our adventure.
The night of the rehearsal party was a rupture for us. He decided to share with me his fears and I felt like he was breaking my heart – right there at his family’s party. That miscommunication has led to many more open conversations. Including the next morning when I asked his fears: Finances, living in a small apartment and that will we change after we are married.
The wedding in Ecuador was so wonderful. The way he looked at my in that Hermes dress he bought me, as if he has never seen a woman before. He even said he were scared to take a photo as it might break the camera. My handsome man, James Bond! It was really fun watching the wedding from the side window and having him hold me up so I didn’t wobble over. Dancing with him, laughing with him, whispering sweet thoughts to him – the whole day was so full of love.
The next day we toured downtown and the churches were so beautiful. Lunch at a beautiful historic hotel was so special since we were able to be alone and share some delicious food and conversation. Larry’s family was so warm and welcoming. Our first international trip together was incredible.
Off to Florida we went after the wedding. My mom was so happy we were there for her 70th birthday. Larry was so sweet to her, even when I want to be a jerk, he helps ground me and see another way to be.
I’m so grateful for 10 days of traveling with Larry and having such a fun, intense, connected vacation.
I’m grateful for feeling so beautiful at the wedding in Ecuador and that he was speechless when he saw me – and I kept catching him staring at me!
10 desires: I desire to let our love grow organically. I desire to be present in each and every moment. I desire to to have a special birthday evening on July 22 where Larry plans something. I desire to find the perfect home for us in or around NYC. I desire to be engaged to him as soon as he is ready to create that loving experience. I desire to continue practicing self care and self love. I desire to talk to him more about our fears and how we can support each other. I desire to continue being vulnerable even when I want to shut my heart. I desire to always make time for my friendships and reach out when I want to just shut down. I desire to continue growing into a woman who loves herself, stands for herself, speaks her truth and puts herself and her desires first.